I’ve been radio silent on social media since Monday. UNHEARD of. The reason being is the pain from my back had gotten quite bad and I need to heal and rest.
One of my old coping mechanisms was eat something, take medicine and go to sleep thinking the food would help it along at night. I did that for years when I had injuries. Food became another medicine, a self medication if you will.
Pain medicines cause weight gain by slowing down our body processes – not for everyone however – I’ll speak for myself and I’ve seen quite a big jump in the last week. There are blips; part of my journey. Throw in a birthday in there and all sense of decorum goes out the window,
Now, I’m on this healthy journey and my body is FIGHTING me. I do not want chicken, I do not want carrots. I’m actually not quite sure what I do want but I want to be pain free.
- Wednesday’s meal plan included: a piece of chicken and my medicine and a nap.
- Lunch: leftover pork and corn and medicine and a nap
- Dinner: leftover turkey sausage and medicine and nap.
I slept TERRIBLY last night again. My surgeon has stated this is quite common and will take time. I told my husband that I was going downstairs to eat breakfast so I could take my medicine and then rest. His reply “If there something magical in a big breakfast that makes it all work?” (One of my worst former habits was nighttime eating)
Ton of bricks. The last week I’ve gained about 9 lbs and yes, pain killers play a role but UNLESS I’M HUNGRY – WHY AM I EATING ALONGSIDE THEM???
So – today – right now, I ate a banana to go with my pain medicine. Why is that a big deal? BECAUSE SOMEONE loved me enough to show me that what I was doing wasn’t going work.
Being sick and down and defeated is not easy – however there is ONE thing we can control and ask ourselves that I haven’t over the last two weeks…
AM I REALLY HUNGRY????
For me, based on the weight I’ve gained, the answer is no. I will not die for having these extra lbs in fact, I’ll stand a bit smarter knowing that I’ve acknowledged their there and I’m moving on.
How do YOU determine if you’re really hungry or stressed or angry or in pain??